Saturday, July 4, 2009

:( :(

I know I’m selfish
But I want your love
I don’t want him
Getting all your love
I’ve fallen for you
And dear god, it hurts

I want to be the one
To make you smile
To make you laugh
But no matter what
I just can’t seem to
And dear god, it hurts

I want you to be happy
But I don’t want him
To be the reason
Of your happiness…
It should be me, yet its not
And dear god, it hurts.

I love you with all
That I am, all of my heart
You are all that I can think of
You are all that I want
But do you want someone else?
Dear god, it hurts…

:(

It hurts when you don’t notice me,
It hurts when you don’t listen to me,
It hurts when you don’t care about me,
It hurts when you say you love me but I don’t feel it.

It hurts when you don’t ask me what’s wrong,
It hurts when you’re not there to save me,
It hurts when you act too busy for me,
It hurts when you don’t hear me screaming.

It hurts when I think about what I can’t have,
It hurts when I imagine bliss but have to wait for it,
It hurts when you don’t know why I’m hurting,
It hurts when you don’t know that I’m hurting.

There is so much pain inside of me,
I need to release it,
I need your help to learn to be happy,
For I am loved by you,
But I still complain,
I still feel miserable,
Please stop hurting me,
I know you don’t mean to,
But the pain is too hard to bear,
Hold me and tell me it’s ok,
Tell me you’ll make it better,
Please fix me.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Losing you....

Why are you so different?
You’re not who you used to be
And why am I so lonely,
When you’re right infront of me?
Something isn’t right,
I can see it in your eyes
I’m just trying to find
A truth behind the lies
You act like we’re so close
But we couldn’t be more far apart
And right now I can’t handle
Someone playing with my heart
Tell me that I’m dreaming,
Tell me our love’s still strong,
Tell me you’re not leaving,
Please tell me that I’m wrong
Tell me that everything
Is going to be just fine
Tell me you love me
And you’ll always be mine
Constantly, we’re fighting
It gets worse everyday
And I don’t want to stay
Just to watch you slip away
I only want to make you smile
But I only make you frown
I just want to make you happy
Seems all I do is bring you down
I’ve never felt so far away from you
And I need you here so bad
But I feel like we’ve already lost
Everything we ever had
Please tell me that I’m dreaming,
Tell me our love’s still true,
Tell me you’re not leaving,
I’d give up anything but you
But I don’t know you anymore
You’re not who you used to be
How can I miss you so much
When you’re right here with me?
I’ve never been
This scared before
And I can’t take this
Anymore
We fight, we try,
We scream, we cry,
We fake, we lie,
We say goodbye
Then you wrap your arms around me
And you look into my eyes
You tell me that you love me
And we both apologize
Then we pretend
That everything is ok
And it is, at least
For the rest of the day
The last time we did this
Was yesterday
And we said things would
Never be this way
But tomorrow we’ll do it
All over again
And right now it’s the worst
It’s ever been
Remember when we first met?
Remember our first kiss?
Remember those first couple years?
They weren’t anything like this
I keep telling myself,
It isn’t true
But deep down, I know

I’m losing you…

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